you were there all morning.
even when you weren’t really there.
in the deepest corner of my mind, that’s where you are.
asking me if things are going the way that they should be going.
expecting things to go the way that they should be going.
expecting me to make it happen.
make it happen on my own.
perasaanku tak terhapuskan
sometimes you were what made it happen.
it used to be you.
you don’t want to see
that i can’t.
i can’t make things happen.
titis embun membasahi mata hatiku
i don’t think i’m a generous person.
i don’t like sharing my joys & happiness with people who won’t share my difficulties & sadness.
i just don’t.
that is just somethng that i refuse to do.
so if i don’t want to share, then i won’t.
apa yang ku genggam
tak mudah untuk aku lepaskan
i wished that i don’t have to feel like this.
but i don’t hate you.
i just want to see the person that you used to be.
maybe i’m still living in the past, but i needed to see that.
i needed to see you.