seriously if you really want to care you can do anything within your power to actually care.
if you don’t then you won’t.
the past couple of days i have:
- done the laundry. twice.
- cleaned up my room.
- went shopping for some food/groceries
- paid the rent
- bought tickets to return home
- bought new sandals to wear to work
- stitched up my office wardrobe
- saved and sent that map
i only have to start ironing my outfits for tomorrow’s work.
but for now.
i don’t feel like doing anythng.
can you believe that i somehow went to 2 different malls in one day yesterday and i didn’t even get myself any sort of fast food?
not even take-away.
i was distracted with something it consumed all my attention.
the place that i currently live in makes it almost impossible to get any meals at night or the early evening.
i kinda live on biscuits and bread [at night].
and sometimes when i get back i’m just too tired to eat.
and too lazy to even boil some water.
and well one thing about working in the office.
i can’t just binge on food, it’s easier to starve than to really eat.
they’re nice people but they have this tendency to laugh about people who weigh more than them.
it’s like a private joke or something.
i don’t think they really mean any harm, but sometimes i was just saying some random things that i saw among the people in the office and then they somehow managed to laugh or joke about someone who isn’t light like them.
even though their idea of humour doesn’t involve me, i do feel sorry for all the people who were laughed at unknowingly.
it’s not that appealing to laugh at people bcause of their size.
isn’t that superficially discriminating?
i don’t know.
maybe they don’t mean it in an insulting way, but if it keeps going on then do they really not mean it?
evrytime they laughed at someone’s size i just become startled and went quiet.
sometimes i just smiled and turn away.
it’s not a great feeling.