as if you can. as if you would. as if. but you know you won’t because you don’t (care).

Published May 7, 2010 by crystalights

 

“SABTU AHAD KITER TAK KEJE. AWAK INGAT SAYE TAKDE KEJE LAIN KE?”

“TARIKH TU MESTI BERUBAH. HANTAR JE DULU. YG LAIN NANTI SAYE URUS”

.

i find that so hard to believe.

because like all those times before you couldn’t deliver the things that you said you would.

you are not among those whose words i can hold with confident assurance by their actions alone.

you are among those whose words weigh less than an empty vessel, because an empty vessel is never entirely empty. (unlike you and your empty slot).

.

dah la kene marah. dgn org mcm ni.

aper salah aku?

.

would you deny for others

what you demand for yourself?

.

you speak of signs and wonders

i need something other

i would believe if i was able

but i’m waiting on the crumbs from your table

.

even in the final weeks people like you still managed to make me feel like this

like i am begging on the streets for the rareness of empathy

no screw that,

it’s a clear conscience (that i was looking for).

from people like you.

.

eh kjap2.

aku pun tak rase ko akan paham entry ni pun

thesis ko dulu (yg takde khidmat dari competent person langsung tu) pun dlm bahase mlayu, kan?

.

tapi takpe.

tu spatutnye tak jadi masalah.

kalau kita sntiasa terbuka terhadap pembelajaran.

asalkan kita masih nak belajar, insyaAllah kita akan dpt pelajaran.

.

sekarang ape yg aku blajar dari kau adalah:

kesabaran.

terima kasih atas pengajaran yg berharga ni.

.

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