selama ni i never complain, or merungut.
because i know where i stand. i know what needs to be done.
but today i cannot help but feel this way.
and it is all your fault.
for the first time i feel so tired
but i can’t stop because there is no one else that i can rely on.
you’re missing when you’re not around, but even when you are around you’re still missing.
you can’t even take care of yourself.
what can people like me hope for in you?
just because i always do things like i am meant to
it doesn’t mean it’s my job.
stop expecting me to be fine with everything
i know that today i am not.
because including today it’s been four days of your vacation but you’re not even really here.
you’re just disappearing into your self-centred world again.
you occupy their time with bits of your world which isn’t even really yours
i hate it when they give their time to you
when you pull them away i’m not jealous
i just don’t want you to turn them into you.
this is my home.
i don’t know if it is yours.
stop thinking about you and only you.
i am not your dog.