it’s our last celebration together before everything ends
so for me, it has to be perfect.
i wanted invitation cards
and party favours
and a lot of colourful party acessories
(i would have loved the balloons and tinsels and crepe papers and confetti, but apparently that’s not gonna happen, for now).
my little sister kinda thinks i’m crazy for wanting such full-blown party things
i don’t know why, i want this one to be different.
i wanted the satisfaction of doing it right
because i’m scared
that when the party’s over and the magic wears off i’d probably be stuck with reality without a memorable happy moment
for once i wanted to feel rightfully happy.
so, okay. we’re not having balloons and glitters
but we could try and have evrything else done right.
so i spent the day cleaning and tidying up
and yesterday we worked on the invitation
(after some discussions with my little sister) i came up with something that looks like this, but my design was lighter without the black background.
it is actually a Birthday and Farewell Party.
(my little sister’s birthday is coming soon and my leaving is happening soon too).
we figured it’d be okay to do it in one shot.
we were preparing the party favours (i specifically told my little sister how i wanted it to be, and for who).
and finally the goody bags are done. (if you look closely, you can see the pink panther stickers i put on the wrappers).
i liked doing these things.
it makes me feel like: there is a purpose, and i’m fulfilling it.
i want people to come, eat, and then bring back something thinking: that was nice.
we just have to cook, and get the cake tomorrow.
and then i think everything’s done.
as the days draw closer i’m getting more and more terrified
i have around 19 days left before the end begins
i don’t like flying
i take time to get accustomed to new surroundings
and i’m not really emotionally stable when i’m on my own.
so this is more of an early birthday party for my little sister than a farewell party for me
because i’m not exactly celebrating a farewell
i’m just letting people be informed of my departure, that’s all.
here comes the cake
happy birthday & farewell