i forgot to take today’s handout pulak.
aper bezanyer aku ngn budak yg tak dtg kelas?
dah la tak dpt A. bcause i can’t write good enough.
pas tu aku ader a lot to do. tapi rase mcm tak boleh nak start.
pas tu aku rase mcm my world is falling apart. but everyone’s okay.
pas tu everyone expects everyone else to be okay.
pas tu people do things as if they can fix me.
pas tu aku takde space nak run and hide.
no one can fix me.
no one should.
i’ve been like this for so long, does it even matter?
it’s a competition, everyone nak suceed.
sape kisah pasal org yg nangis2 sndiri smbil review essay kat celah computer lab?
this is the real world.
and i am flawed.
“you do realize that you have to grow up, right?”
tu la antara ayat2 biase aku dengar.
what the hell does that mean anyway?
does growing up means that you have nothing to feel?
semue grown ups are heartless ke?
bukan ke skrg aku tgh grow?
habis tu aper?
semua grown ups takde huge faltering moments mcm aku ke?
semua grown ups are the epitome of perfection ke?
so kalau org tu deviate from that concept maknenyer dier tak grow up lg ke?
jst because i’m like this
doesn’t mean that this is all i’ll ever be.
kalau tak tahu ape2 psl aku then don’t say anything.
tak kisah la kau sape.
do you really think you know me beyond my name?
i’m probably just a face that you come across in a short episode of your life serie
i’ll probably figure things out myself
a lot of people can say a lot of things
but no one really knows what it’s like to be so far away from where you’ve been and yet you still haven’t quite arrived there where you’re supposed to be.