aku sorang je dlm rumah ni yg still in the middle of exam
sabar la sikit.
(dulu mase blajar mandarin laoshi ckp “jia you!” tu mksudnyer tambah minyak).
maksudnyer cam: “fighting!”
tapi org korea tak sebut “fighting!” org korea sebut “hwaiting!” sbb bunyi “f” takde dlm huruf hangul.
mcm org jepun sebut “ganbatte!”
aku tgh cube nak memahamkan graf “P sorption” ni
pas tu surf internet jap aku ter discover something la pulak
tak sangke lecturer yg ajar aku anatomy dulu2 tu kawan ngn mak blogger famous tu
isyh, m’mang tak sangke la
they’re not the same (?)
i’m not sure la if they speak the same language
sile paham what i mean (without me having to elaborate on that)
agak respect org2 yg ada pendirian teguh yg di sokong oleh pengetahuan yg mendalam
pendapat yg dicetuskan pun bukan sekadar ilham perasaan tapi buah fikiran yg lahir dari accumulated collective knowledge
maksudnya setiap ilmu yg dia dpt dan setiap ilmu yg dia generate dizahirkan dgn usaha yg dia lakukan
so kalau org tu ada title
aku akan try to find out aper yg dia buat (utk dpt title tu)
whether or not dier have any idea on how dier end up there
whether or not dier aware of dier punyer journey to that title
aku rase lecturer aku tu org yg aware of that journey
dier worked hard
dier smart, persistent, resilient, diligent
so aku tak rase dier akan jadi easily impressed by other people
sbb background dier pun impressive
from the way dier b’ckp you can feel the difference
i thought that she would have lived in a different kind of world
a world where people don’t talk about how to look pretty and how to be nice and dandy and how to get some things to look like the only thing you’d want to look at and how to make your life as perfect as the pictures you put on display where the cracks doesn’t show and the flaws unknown
and how to say how important it is to be nice (because you are?)
i didn’t think that she’d be anywhere near that kind of world
because every thing you want
has a price
and when you’re working hard
does it matter how friggin’ “nice and dandy” you are?
you have other things to worry about than what to do for a perfect day
i thought she would have lived in a world different than that.
i’m not a pessimist,
i’m a realist.
life isn’t a fairytale
even if it seems like it is one,
something will always exist to remind you that it isn’t.
it’s just a matter of how long it takes for you to be reminded.
back to P sorption graph then.