the truth is that
aku tk tahu mcmane nk bgtau kau erti sbnar keikhlasan.
dlm hati aku ni, ader byk benda yg aku simpan
aku tak nak mndtgkn mudharat yg lebih bsar bile aku luahkn ape yg aku fikir
sbb aku tak pasti kau boleh faham ke tidak.
because frm prvious experience it’s easy for people to misundrstand me and my intentions
(although i don’t know why).
stiap bnda yg kita buat, smtimes the effect is not immediate.
sometimes we think, oh it’s only 2 dollars.
but if it’s 2 dollars per week isn’t it like 4 dollars (or more) per month?
and then multiply by 4 people isn’t it 16 dollars per month?
what kind of cleaning product do you need that requires you to spend 16 dollars per month?
okay aku faham semue org berhak
tapi did i really say that you can tell me what you need (and i’ll pay for them?)
i thought that was for some items, not for cleaning products.
why does it seemed almost as if it’s my fault (for not undertsanding)?
aku sriously tak faham
sbb aku rse sume org ada hak
dan sume org ader duit yg dibelanjakan utk perkara2 trtentu
aku tak faham kenape msti diperkatakan sbegitu
kmudian bile tk berhasil
terucaplah kata keikhlasan
sriously
do you know what keikhlasan is?
do you think sincerity is just a word you say in replace of what you couldn’t have?
like a last resort?
i feel frustrated
because i feel that
kata ikhlas itu suci
bukan wajar diambil enteng
digune semahunya bila dtg situasi kurang menyenangkan
this isn’t even really about money
it’s about thinking really2 deeply
when you decide to say or act towards people
if i just say whatever i want or feel
would it do any good to anyone
or would it make things become worse?
is what i want more important despite the damage that i could have done?
crystalight he♥rts 