..kitorg telah pun ber “mukhayyam”
and i guess in a way,
hari ni kitorg pergi ke “hanging rock”.
ader org pesan sruh pkai warne biru.
“..walau kita kan terpisah”.
i feel happy and sad all in one day (and night).
kdg2, we try to do things so that we don’t cause trouble to other people but sometimes things just happened
i don’t blame anyone but myself
but of course
it doesn’t make it hurt any lesser
once in a while,
it’s nice to be understood.
i’ve lost the things that i would have said in times like these.
because words can only do so much when the heart speaks its own tune.
it’s okay to feel like this now
at least i didn’t mean to cause more damage than repairs.
i didn’t mean to do a lot of things
but when they happen, i wish to bear it on my own.
i’ll take this.
for one little tear, there has been many more laughter.
for one little hurt, there has been many more joy.
it wasn’t a painless journey
it wasn’t easy
but i think
it is the kind of pain that i have to live with
going and leaving
attachments and detachments
i never really knew my own place, did i?
as i looked at the sky
i saw the clouds separate so rapidly
almost seemed like a season’s movement in a few stolen glances.
like it was meant to disintegrate as natural as it integrates
it changes its form
and then, whatever it becomes seems like what it always should have been.
no one can say that it’s not meant to be.
not a soul can truly say how it should have been.
the clouds move with the winds
no matter how long it will eventually move away
no matter how much everything is worth
no matter how huge your efforts are
you just can’t shape things the way you wield clay into pottery
you can’t “takluk kan hati” sesiapa pun
pemilik hati kita yg sbenar adalah Allah.
sesungguhnya, hanya Allah yg tahu ape yg aku rase s’hingga ke saat ini.