living in the “now”. at least for a little while.

Published May 27, 2012 by crystalights

i think it’s almost a month and a half that i’ve been working.

work is okay, not all perfect and dandy, but it’s okay.

i am thankful, alhamdulillah.

 

i was just thinking about my plans for the future.

so

 

hi dad,

gimme 2 years.

i’ll (try to) figure something out so that i can fulfill that expectation in my own terms.

 

it doesn’t feel right to gamble my life for the sake of a career

but it doesn’t feel right to fulfill my own dreams while completely disregarding filial piety

 

aku faham siape yg berhak ke atas aku.

 

so.

 

maybe aftr 1 and a half years i’ll start searching.

 

anyway,

on a lighter note,

 

aku rase walau ke mane pun aku pergi

i just have to try to be someone yg berusaha

yg bermanfaat kpd diri dan org lain.

walau kt mane pun aku berada,

i have to try and do what i can.

bukan separuh masak,

bukan separuh hati.

 

i have to try and make the effort

sbb aku org yg dh take a lot from this earth from the favours of the One who created me.

aku org yg slalu meminta dan berharap dan byk yg telah tertunai untukku oleh Dia yg Maha Memberi.

Dia izinkan aku tamat pengajian selengkapnya dlm tempoh sesingkatnya dan izinkan aku kembali ke tanah air secepatnya.

Dia izinkan aku mula bekerja secepatnya dengan pekerjaan yg sebaik2nya yg aku inginkan.

Dia buka jln tarbiyyah utk aku saat aku jauh dari org2 yg selama ini bersama aku.

the least that i can do is to not just become a solely self-centred person for the rest of my life wherever i am, whatever my position.

 

insyaAllah,

i want to try.

insyaAllah, ada jalan utk kita.

 

ya Allah

help me undrstand,

and help him understand,

that this is the best that could ever happen to me at a time like this.

limpahkan kesejahteraan, kesihatan yg baik dan petunjuk yg sempurna utk kami semua yg meniti hidup di sini,

Amiin.

 

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