..bile hidup terlalu dlm kebergantungan kpd insan lain
aku tak suke
bile aku tak boleh buat pilihan sendiri
aku tak suke
bile aku terpakse mengenepikan ape yg utama utk aku.
aku tak suke.
sbb in the end it’s my life,
i’m the one who has to be responsible for the choices that i make
if i don’t even want to make that choice in the first place
then would it be fair for me who still have to be responsible for it?
aku tak boleh terbalikkan reality
aliran hidup pasti akan berjalan
this is how life works
not everyone would really think twice about pointing fingers
klau baik, bagus la
klau mudharat, salah aku la kot. sbb aku yg terima. aku yg buat kputusan tu (wlaupun sbnrnye dlm terpaksa)
i don’t wanna make that choice
aku nak hidup dgn tenang dan aman dan sejahtera dan penuh kesyukuran
aku nak bersyukur
aku nak rasa qanaah,
bile kita redha dgn apa yg Allah bagi.
aku nak dia pun tenang
jgn fikir bhw akulah org yg rugi,
seolah2 aku deserve so much better
padahal sesungguhnya apa yg Allah bagi, itulah yg terbaik utk kita
aku nak dia pun tenang dan bersangka baik kpd-Nya
don’t let him think that i am wasting my life and my youth as if i deserve more
because honestly, i don’t think i do
i don’t think i deserve more than what i have now
sure sometimes i want more, but i’m not sure i do deserve it.
terimalah keputusan ni
kalau aku pergi temuduga kalau tak dpt takpela.
tapi kalau dpt jgnlah expect aku utk terima
sbb aku tak sanggup nak tingggalkan apa yg aku usahakan sehingga ke saat ini
i just want to do my best as part of this ummah
but filial piety is important to me too.
i don’t want to be only a chaser of the things that money can buy
i want my life to have more meaning than just the digits in my bank account
i want a peaceful and content life.
i don’t want to have many digits and higher position but be miserable and lead a less meaningful life because of the people and environment that i am working for
ya Allah, please make him understand
that no one has to do any “favours” for me to get “somewhere” and be eligible for “something”
that the favours from You is enough for me
it is You who have been with me all along ya Allah
You know me the best
please help me
please make him understand that it’s okay for me to work hard in a small position and be happy and content and feel some meaning in my life
than work in a big position in a place that i don’t have strong faith and connection to and be miserable and work for something which is not meaningful to me
tunjukkanlah kepada dia bahawa kecukupan yg sebenar2nya adalah milik-Mu
hanya engkau yg berkuasa menentukan apa yg terbaik di setiap peringkat kehidupan utk setiap insan
don’t let him think that i will live the same kind of life that he fears for me
because the kind of life that i live is not his to arrange,
it has always been a favour from You ya Allah.
ajarkan kami erti kesyukuran.
jadikanlah kami org2 yg sentiasa bersyukur dan redha dgn suratan-Mu
ya rabbal Al-Amiin.
i don’t want to wage another war of words against the very person who taught me how to read.