it’s been so long since i’ve written anything.
“pictures frozen in time are becoming clearer..”
aku pun tak faham ke”emo”an aku kali ini.
maybe i’m just annoyed. sgt. sbb i kinda have very low tolerance to ridiculousness. i thought i’m getting better at the whole tolerance thing, but it turns out some things still tick me off.
which is not good.
bcause i thought i’m better than that.
i’m not supposed to just be so friggin’ mad at those insignficant things.
takpela, biarkan je la.
walaupun aku rase ridiculous sgt2 someone saying on and on about where she’s been and what she had and repeating her entire academic history to me as if i care as if i have no idea what it’s like to be there the way she has, and all the while,
i keep thinking,
how dare you say it and flaunt it like you deserved it, you privileged daughter of the bourgeois.
you who’re born with a silver spoon and platter, with your fancy prep school prepped up for you
what do you have which isn’t already handed in to you?
what is it exactly can you be proud of? that you worked hard enough in an almost perfect setting that was already set-up just for you?
do you think that the rest of the world doesn’t get what you got because they didn’t deserve it?
if they were given the same privilege i’m sure many of them would have done as equally well as you did, perhaps even more.
so what right do we have to put ourselves above the rest?
this money and position thing, isn’t exactly all real and isn’t exactly all that we deserve
so get over it
get over yourself.
wake up and see
that the world doesn’t revolve solely around you