All posts for the month August, 2012


Published August 24, 2012 by crystalights


is the year that my father was born.

for 30 years he has seen and known the world before i did.





thinking and knowing

Published August 4, 2012 by crystalights

since time is of the essence these days (it’s Ramadhan, everything matters, rite?)

i’m kinda juggling a few things at a time.

not sure if this’ll work, but yeah, at least i’m still breathing, rite?


i have lesson materials to prepare, exam papers to write (with the answer schemes), revision session with the ones who’re taking the supplementary exam, a bit of mentoring with the freshies and sophomore students, short-sem and normal-sem teaching with their tutorials to be done, and then yes of course the things that i wanna do for Ramadhan- i can’t just ignore that.


yes i’m busy.

but Ramadhan makes me think

beneath all the mess of the past few weeks

i think i know myself more now


i think

i’ll always want more

because i feel like i’m not doing enough

like i’m not fulfilling what i should


so get over it

while i get over myself (or not)

i don’t know


sometimes i think some people come closer

because they’re intrigued

they’re just puzzled

not because i draw them in,

but because they don’t understand the person that i am.


i think

once people figure me out,

the mystery ends.

when the show’s over,

take a bow

and then everybody goes



so i always go

i always go first.

because i want to be away

before everything disappears