am i where i’m meant to be?
i feel like i am settling into something that i would never want for myself.
i can’t do what i want, what i like.
i can’t go where i want to be, and be what i want to be.
it feels like i can’t find peace anywhere.
my life feels like a constant block of walls with no doors but plenty of keys.
i want the comfort of staying but need the relief of going out there and doing something more with my life.
i am disenchanted, disillusioned by all the wrong turns that i end up in.
for me, there is no real refuge from the hurt of disappointment. because every road leads me to the same ending.
i think that it’s easier for me to write it out than to actually live it.
i think i need to be on my own again. so that i don’t hurt myself and others along the way.