when i was younger,
i liked watching jpanese anime.
i think, i still do now.
i like that there is a story behind every character that is drawn, and that the drawings beautifully depicts this.
there was this anime which i really made an effort to follow, frm the beginning untill the end
“honey and clover”.
it was this really heartfelt story about a group of people who are very different but has this common ground that somehow puts them together: art and studies.
and in the midst of each of their own personal trials and tribulations, they somehow survived and came to know more about what love and life really is:
it’s not all sweet and pretty and predictable all the time
and a lot of times what the story is saying is something that really hits home.
when the cool-headed nomiya brought yamada who was grieving an unrequited love to view the ferris wheel from the balcony of his apartment
he knew she was in this deep sadness
and he talked about how
some things look better when they’re seen from a far distance
because once you come near and got on it
it isn’t anything as enticing as that view from afar.
and then i think
she gets what he means
and she can only allow herself to wallow.
some things require effort and sacrifices
and time and especially: the arrangement of fate and destiny
but if it’s not meant to be and you’re somewhere else other than the kind of situation that you thought you wanted to be in
then perhaps you’re just exactly where you’re supposed to be
(even when you find it so hard to believe)
because every path and consequences are written
you might think that you don’t want to be the onlooker of a beautiful view,
you want to be within that and be there to know what it’s like from the inside looking out instead of the outside looking in
because you want to know what it’s like to be encased in a breathtaking view
could it be that the grass is greener on the other side
when you know it’s been the same earth and the same sunshine
the same kind of feeling you get when you watch the lights glitter in the dark
the same soreness of a yearning heart
wouldn’t we be in the same cycle again
that we would want something that we have yet to have
or that we could never have
that is unreachable no matter how tangible
perhaps happiness means
that you’re just happy regardless of how near or far you are from that breathtaking view
that you can close your eyes and see it there anyway, even when it isn’t there when you open them
and seeing them there doesn’t change the way you feel about where you are
because the fact that you’re somewhere distant enough to see and feel and think
is reason enough for you to just be. happy. or at least remotely content.
i think there is a reason why there is only one snow white even when there are 7 dwarfs;
some people are meant to be rescued
while others are meant to be rescuing.
some people are meant to be looked up to
but it doesn’t mean that they’re not looking after.
some people are meant to be more than what they are to themselves
some people take a longer time for a happy ending
not because they are undeserving
but because our Creator is kind enough to give more time and distance for our selves to learn, to seek, and to be enriched with valuable lessons and experiences
everyone has their own struggles
perhaps there is no one particular thing that exactly defines our lives’ worth.