so i sent that message to you
because even after all that has happened all this time
i know that there are things that are more important than my self-assured pride
i should have known
that being the only one thinking that way
could mean being hurt more than what i’ve ever imagined
.
i think i understand
that sometimes some people find some things more difficult to give away
but some people gave them away anyway (no matter how difficult)
because giving is what you’ll eventually have to do
in order for you to receive
and what is more valuable than your selfish pride and egoistic perceptions
is something that you cannot create with your own hands
.
because you live in a big world, no matter how small it is
and you’re a small soul, no matter how big you dream
and you’re not entirely independent, no matter how much you believe that you are
you’re not above and beyond those whom you’ve known
you can’t bend the wind and move the earth at your will
you can’t even put a heart at your beck and call
perhaps not even your own heart
you are just another creation with the roles of which you are created for
so don’t
make me feel
like i owe you the world
when i have believed
that all that i’m trying to do
was live up to that role
and this name
the reason of my return to the same road after all this
wasn’t for you or because of you
it was for that role and this name.
.
because underneath all the mess
someone’s got to do what they can to fix the damage
and i’m not sure if it will be you
so i guess
i’m gonna have to
do more than what i used to do
or what i would have done in my distant past
of which you were partly part of
but perhaps not as crystal as when we parted before our parting
.